What does that show you ?

Everytime I have to make a run to the supermarket or to target, my kids father always wants me to take my son with me. Sometimes he tries to convince me to take both my kids with me like if I don’t be with them all day, changing diapers & making sure their fed. & also Like if he doesn’t want to watch them right quick while I step out.. he tells me they need fresh air & I think the reason why he always wants me to take my son with me is because He either probably thinks I’m going to meet up with someone to cheat or because he just doesn’t feel like watching the both of them.

When I’m visiting at my parents house for a few days to have space from him, he’ll complain that he haven’t seen his kids he wants to be with his kids but when we’re with him, I’m doing most of the work.

He changes diapers like twice a week.

He makes me feel anxious to ask for help cause there’s been times he said I ask on purpose or at the wrong time 😐..

I’m so fucking sick of this dude. I don’t want to be with him anymore or deal with his shit. He thinks that I’m gonna be fucked as a single mom like if I don’t have enough support from my parents, sister & bestfriend 😅 he tells me that if we were to separate my kids ain’t going to stay with me at my parents house because he doesn’t want my kids to be raised like how I was raised 😑then he says that they’ll be staying with him if that was to happen like first off I know for a fact he won’t be able to deal with the both of them. I feel so hopeless and helpess Idk what to do. I get my life & my parents life threatened when I want nothing to do with him. He thinks I have to put up with his shit. He’s the shittiest person I’ve ever dealt him he makes me resent him. I regret him being the father of my kids. I’m so disappointed in myself for letting myself go thru this. I should’ve left him when I had the chance now I feel trapped in this bull shit. The last thing I want to feel is depressed I really don’t want to fall into depression or even deal with post part I’m since I just had a baby 2 months ago. I’m so angry at myself for the things I deal with, I’m not happy at all