12DPO trying not to test early this month anyone with me?

Every month I always test early. And I always get the bfn. In July however, I tested and got the bfn but still no af after 3 days. I tested each day n nada 👎🏼 finally on 15dpo later in The evening I got A BFP I took several test I was overjoyed!!! I lost my angel 👼 but I’ve been trying since the end of July and every month nada. Last month I took it 12dpo and I though I seen a vvvfl but it came on 14dpo. Sooooo last month I did my opk and bd cyc 9,14 I peaked on cyc15 🤞 According to this app my af comes in 2 days I also use Flo app and that’s saying 3 days. Either way I have some symptoms but I’m always feeling the same every month before AF. I’m a bit sad when I start feeling the cramping 😢😢😔. Trying to be optimistic and pessimistic at the same time. Having a confusing day