9 weeks pregnant

I’m 18 and I am 9 weeks pregnant today.I was still in a relationship with the father and over the past couple of weeks it’s been tough for me. We slipped up one time and I became pregnant before I became pregnant I told my boyfriend that if I ever was to get pregnant by him at such an early age I would abort. Now that I am pregnant my mind has changed and he is mad at me for it.He constantly tries to argue with me about getting an abortion everyday and I just can’t make a decision to do that because I don’t know if that is what I really would want to do. He blames me for being pregnant and tells me that I “betrayed” him because I have told him before that I WOULD get an abortion.I’m 9 weeks pregnant and I have just turned 18 and I don’t think I will be ready to have my own child but I feel like abortion is not the best option for me I have been depressed for several weeks about this situation he is upset with me and threatens to break up with me because I want to keep our child.