Should I believe my mom?

So growing up I was molested by my older brother for about six years, I’m honestly not even sure when he started since there was a lot of mental manipulation but it was around when I was 7. I told some friends what happened in high school and my parents ended up hiring a lawyer because one of those friends accused my brother of rape (which I believe happened, she just got her dates mixed up and it became unprovable but that’s not the point of my post).

I lied to everyone - the lawyer, the police, and cas - when I was questioned about the abuse because I believed that my mom threatened me to keep my mouth shut. My mom saw him abusing me once (around the time it stopped) and after the police and lawyers got involved my mom asked me if anything happened between me and my brother, and asked if he had touched me. She also pointed out that they had lawyers for my brother and would defend him, and that the rest of the family would stand behind my brother. In her mind she was asking me in order to protect me, and when I confronted her about my abuse she said that she was asking so that if he had done something to me they could do something about it. In my mind she was threatening me and saying that they wouldn’t support me if I came forward, and that I wouldn’t have a place to live if I did, so I kept my mouth shut.

I guess my question is this - is it possible that I misconstrued what she was saying back then? Or is it that she changed the narrative in her own mind? I still feel like if my parents were going to do something it would have been when they uncovered it initially not after a friend of mine brought up rape. And on top of this my parents are continuing to have a relationship with my brother even after I confronted my mom about the abuse, so even if she claims she was unaware of the full extent back then (which is a straight up lie since I told her it had been going on for a while after she uncovered the abuse) she is now and is choosing to remain in contact with him.

So Tl/dr - should I believe my mom when she says that she was asking about the abuse in order to protect me and that she wasn’t trying to threaten me? I don’t know what to believe...

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