So discouraged

I’m just at the absolute end of my rope. I’m so angry at my body for not functioning properly and putting me through this journey. I had my daughter when I was 18 without even trying and never would I EVER have thought that I would eventually struggle with infertility. I’ve been trying for my second baby for 4 years and 10 months, went through a miscarriage and an ectopic pregnancy as well as surgery to remove my damaged tube. And now I literally can’t get pregnant no matter what I do. Every month I think that it’ll happen because “I did everything right” and it never happens. I’m currently 6DPO and I already know I’m out this month. I can just feel it. I know I need to just bite the bullet and start the process of IVF but I just can’t bring myself to do it because maybe, just maybe a miracle will happen.. uggghh please tell me I’m not the only one feeling like this right now.