Am I Being Silly Part 2

Edit: so I tried to talk about to him about it and his response was that “it was all harmless conversation and that he did it because “I don’t try and talk to him” and I do nothing to try and better our marriage. Which is not true at all

So a month ago I posted about having troubles in my marriage and my husband acting weird. After trying to have multiple talks, this morning I took his phone while he was sleeping. I had this strange amount of guilt because I’m not this type of girl to do this but I needed answers. So I went through his phone and found this on going conversation with another female. It was nothing sexual but it was him asking her about her day and how she was doing. Which he never does for me. Her telling him how she is having an anxiety attack and him consulting her. Couple months after having our son, I confined in him about how I felt there was something wrong with me and his reply was that he didn’t like when people made that stuff up. Later I was diagnosed with PPD and anxiety and started therapy. He still thought it all was a joke and I was being dramatic.

As I kept scrolling through their conversations, I just kept reading a wholesome conversation which I have been begging him for. They send pictures of their children back and forth and talk about their day. I don’t think he’s actually ever met this female, I think she is off some game. I know they have been talking since at least June. I stopped reading after that.

I am frustrated and sad because all I’ve wanted is just for him to ever talk to me and here he is easily giving this to another female.

He’s currently a stay at home dad and here I am busting my ass at work then coming home to play with our child to give him a break and that still is never enough for him.

Like am I being silly for being upset over this? I am technically he isn’t cheating on me?

I feel so embarrassed.