I'm going to miss you so much

After all these years together I can't believe this is the end. I'm so scared for the future, I feel sick at the thought of you falling in love with someone else. It physically hurts, even though it was a toxic relationship with emotional physical and emotional abuse on times, it doesn't stop me from constantly crying at the happy memories we shared. We both still love each other which is why I'm so sad, I'm going to miss our family days out, I'm going to miss our little nicknames we had for each other, I'm going to miss having our little family unit, I'm going to miss all the times we would escape for the night in a nice hotel just the two of us, I'm going to miss cooking together, I'm going to miss all the little things. I love you so much! There is no one on this earth that I want, just you 💔 I look at the kids and I feel like I've failed them because I couldn't keep our family together. I believe the relationship could have been turned around and I would have done anything for you to feel the same.