me and my ex

So me and my ex boyfriend were kind of on an off since august-november, he fell in love with me and i fell in love with him and it was perfect at first. but then he just stopped hanging out with me for weeks at a time...anyways he left for basic training a few days ago and i told him that even though things are different right now i’ll wait for him and all he said was OK like WTF!!! he hasn’t spoken to me since he left and his snap score is going up and he’s been leaving me on read... but i still have feelings for him and stil love him!! am i crazy??