I’m just wondering, how did it work out? How do you feel? Are you able to know how your child is doing?

I’m struggling as a single mom to a 2 year old. I’ve had depression since 2015, and I live with a controlling and a verbally abusive mother. I feel like I don’t have the mental and physical energy to be a good mom. But I try my best every day. But still, it’s not enough. I feel like a half-ass mother. My mom condemns me all the time. It’s even more depressing. All I wish is for more sleep or time to myself. And I’m always judged for it. I pretty much haven’t slept since my daughter was born. I wish I had more support. But it’s so hard right now with the pandemic. I can’t even have my friends babysit.

I’m struggling with depression and thoughts of suicide. And I don’t want to be around my mom. Some months I struggle with trying so hard not to strangle her. Literally I want to hurt her sometimes.

I just want my daughter to have better. I think I want to put her up for adoption. Is there any advice?