Trying to conceive

I terminated my pregnancy on May 15 due to genetic issues the baby was having (too long of a story) this was my first pregnancy and i was so damn sad.

Jumping to the present where I’m ready to try again and this is the 3rd cycle but my period just came. I’m so sad bc when i originally got pregnant it happened so easily and we weren’t even trying. Now that we’re trying i feel like I’m driving myself crazy! I avoided all my period apps just to ease my mind but i just spotted blood and my period was due today. I’m so disappointed and frustrated 😭. Trying to remain positive but it’s really hard when i see other people having their first babies and i was silently pregnant going through what i went through 😢