Second baby blues.

I know this may receive hate or whatever but I have to vent my feelings anyway. I’m pregnant with my second child and just not happy at all to be having another baby. With my first child I didn’t know what to expect, so my pregnancy was all sunshine and rainbows thinking about this new little love I am about to have. With this child, I already have a three year old so I know that motherhood is not sunshine and rainbows all the time. I think about this baby being born and all I can do is think “yup, less sleep than I’m already getting and twice the work I’m already doing. Yup, another whole person I’m responsible for.” I’m a mess, I quit taking my anti anxiety and antidepressants when I found out I was pregnant. So with my mental health in the state it’s in I feel so guilty that I’m not happy but I’m just not.