birthdays always suck this one is no exception

I finally got up at 5 today because my boyfriend ended up having to work on my birthday and I don't have friends. I'm 21 and this is my first birthday away from my parents. I wanted to sleep because I really have nothing else to look forward to. I've recently crashed my car and everything has been really bad for me lately. I fight with my partner a lot and we live together. We live together in my college town so I can attend school and work here and have been here around a year and a half. Upon waking up my mom sent me this

and it really just broke me... i was sobbing from this and my dad called me and told me happy birthday but then told me i shouldn't have been talking to my mom about cars on the phone yesterday and i started crying again i was trying to hide it b i couldnt in my voice and he could tell so he told me i better not be crying. that made me feel even worse.. he lost signal and his phone hung up. I feel so worthless and i've cried so hard i threw up. I constantly hurt people. My boyfriend is constantly unhappy and we fight all the time. My parents are unhappy and stressed because of me. I don't have any friends to talk to about this and feel liek my head is about to blow up... the only thing i really do on earth is cause pain or stress for others

i just wanted to be happy and live with my partner and be happy and attend school but nothing has turned out right and i don't know who i am anymore now