I’m the worst mother in the world

My fiancé and I got in a fight yesterday because I wanted to go sit in the basement to watch the bachelorette. YES the bachelorette set him off so bad. he would not leave me alone. I kept begging him to walk away but he kept raising his voice at me and telling me to leave for the night, then when I decided to grab my 2 year old daughter to leave- he completely changed and said he didn’t want me to go.

I broke down. I’m tired of this. I kept trying not to fight in front of the baby. She grabbed my face and kissed me as she watched him make me cry. She looked so sad, but so warm and compassionate. I feel TERRIBLE. I don’t want her to see me like that again. It can’t happen.

I don’t know what to do. I love her dad but this is a very regular thing. We don’t get along for more than like one day and the house is tense. This house don’t feel like home...

Can someone please talk to me? I have no one and this guilt is eating me alive.