Need advice on what to do

My boyfriend and i have been arguing recently and decided not to talk until he come back from being home. I said it would be best for me and i asked because i needed to try to focus on myself because i became overly obsessed with him and most likely put lots of pressure on him, hence then did not receive the attention i think i deserve mostly due to my own faults but also because i don’t understand him sometimes. However no matter what he has always been patient with me and respectful. I have lost confidence around him and unfortunately feel like i am afriad to lose him but i am trying my best not to show it. He himself has been dealing with depression and before he left, his apartment was a mess. A complete depressive episode. I decided to clean it up entirely and just do something nice for him for when he gets back. However since we have been having issues since hes left i feel scared to do another nice thing because he thinks im too dependent on him but this time for myself has really helped me. I didnt have that much money to spend on Christmas for him this year, so i wasn’t able to get much. My plan was to cook him something yummy for when he comes back from his flight on too of his favorite desert and then i got some lingerie to wear as well and since his favorite things to do is show me shows that he has watched already (because he says it makes him happy knowing i like something of his) i wanted to just have a little movie/show night after some hopeful freaky time.

However since we have been having issues and hes been a little down and sad, would this be too much? I have literally never ever ever done anything like this and i have a tendency of wanting this from him honestly but i have never really done something like this before. Should i do it all or hold off on something?

Thank you so much and im sorry for the novel!