Nervous to look at my vagina after giving birth

Weird topic to post about I know. But I gave birth 2 weeks ago as of yesterday and I feel like I’m healing decently regarding the pain. I can stand for longer periods of time and sitting doesn’t bother me anymore. The bleeding has stopped but now it’s just brownish discharge, some days there’s more than others and I still need a pad to be safe. It’s a little itchy at times but not unbearable. Even though it’s been 2 weeks I can’t even explain how nervous I am to see what my vagina looks like now. I don’t know when I will work up the courage to look at it again. In my mind I’m expecting to see a stretched out ugly mess but I hope it turns out looking better than I expect it to. I didn’t have any tearing or stitches following birth thankfully, but with how much pressure and stretching I felt when pushing the baby out I can only imagine how it looks!! 😫😭

Has anyone had any positive experiences?? When did you all first take a look at your lady parts following birth?! I’m so scared. I don’t want to look and then regret it. I want to wait as long as possible so I can heal as much as I can first.

Sorry TMI on this post. But we’re all ladies here 😂🤷🏼‍♀️ please tell me something positive! Lol