It just hurts so much.

Ive come to the realization.. He just doesnt love me anymore.. Ever since i found out i was pregnant october 31st. To my miscarriage December 18th. He has became so cold. He gets colder and colder with each day that passes. And just yesterday we got into an argument over him watching the kids so i can go food shopping, he didnt want to watch them and i refuse to bring them out with the corona its so bad in new york.. He tells me we are not breaking up but he wants his ring back.. He told me he feels worthless with me having it.. He tells me how horrible i am.. So many things.. I was there for everything with him when he was broke to when he had his relapse to where his grandfather passed to the time he put his hands on me once i forgiven. I forgiven. For everything he has done. No one is perfect. Just there is so much. And i refused to get into another relationship after my last.. I was emotionally and physically abused cheated on etc.. I was single for 3 1/2 years till i met him, we talked for months went out on dates took everything slow . now im here just crying so hurt and i just have no one to talk to. Im probably all over the place..