Why does this bother me so much

My so and I are engaged. Set to marry this spring in May. He wanted to wait until we’re married to live together. At first his excuse was a religious thing but then we made love and have been regularly since. Then it was about pleasing his parents but I’ve talked to them and they’ve encouraged it especially since we’re getting married. Now it’s just something he imagined he’d do.

He just put in an offer on a house and got accepted. The house will be move in ready before our wedding and he plans to stay there. I asked once again like a fool, after leaving it alone for a while because I was rejected, what he was planning for us. I asked if he thought we’d live there together since we managed to find one before were married. He said mayybeee...

I’m about 21 years old, and he’s a few years older. I live alone out of my parents house and pay all the bills myself. Lost my job to COVID so I’ve been doing a lot of odd jobs and running a depop account for vintage clothes. I’ve been managing but ended up losing a lot of savings because I don’t have a roommate. I live in a small house with the lowest rent in the area. I couldn’t find a friend or even a stranger to live with me. My fiancé doesn’t want to live with me and I guess I understand if he truly wanted that. We’ve been together for two years.

What am I supposed to do now though??

He’s a bit upset that I didn’t have as much to contribute to the wedding and house when I’ve been trying my hardest not to end up broke, mentally and financially. I feel like I would still have more savings and just in general feel better about myself if he or a friend had just considered living with me. Everyone said to just take advantage of the time I had on my own but I’ve been plenty independent for years and it was great being here in a new house but now the fun has faded and bills add up. At the beginning I had the money to startup something I really wanted to do but decided to just get a small house and wait for him to be ready.

I’m trying my hardest to respect his wishes. It seems hypocritical to me though. I feel like I can’t bring it up anymore and don’t know if i want to because it genuinely hurts me at this point. If he won’t live with me and no one around here will then what am I supposed to do and why does this bother me so much?????