No love to give..

I have my 4 month old on me 24/7 eating off me sleeping on me DEPENDING on me. My husband’s never home accept for bed time and stopping home in between work projects. He always wants to hug me kiss me hold me . I DONT WANT TO BE TOUCHED!!!! When I’m free from holding my child I want to be left the hell alone. Am I the only female who feels this way.?! I feel terrible but damn man... you don’t have someone on top of you all day you don’t fricken get it.