I didn’t have the greatest experience with giving birth to my daughter. It was nothing I had envisioned in my head. I also have a family that treats births like a reality tv series. All surrounding me and in my fucking face. Telling me when to push and I’m not about that. I’m going through a birthing center this time around and contemplating on not telling anyone when I’m in labor. I wanted this to be intimate and peaceful and I feel as though that’s the route I will have to take. Just sneaking off to the birthing center when it’s time. Just want it to be me and my midwife. This will probably make my family angry as hell but I don’t know what else to do. I don’t see the purpose of them needing to watch my vagina again. I just needed to vent. Some guidance maybe? Perhaps even some prayers for clarity?