R*pe confession

My boyfriend and I have been together for 3 years next month. He knows that it’s happened when I was a little girl but he never knew details. He’s very respectful of certain things I do not want to do in bed or moments I feel insecure. Just last night we had a deep heart to heart how he thinks it’s best I let go of that “baggage” and forgive the r@pist. So I did. I confessed everything to my bf and how the r@pist made me and my siblings do things as well to each other and to him. I’ve held that secret in for 25 years. now I feel like he thinks differently of me. I feel worse for speaking about it. I feel like it’ll affect us intimately or just In general. Has anyone else still feel disgusted after confessing? Does it go away? Does it affect anything? Am I just paranoid? Thanks in advance.

Side note : he held me and comforted me the entire time. I just feel disgusting now that he knows. I’m sorry if this all does not make sense, as I’m still trying to make it make sense myself.