I want to die 😭

I know that sounds like overkill but I can’t take my baby not sleeping. I don’t get how Instagram mommas look so damn good with 1,2,3 or even 4 little babies without complaining. They are so happy and full of joy. Makes me think that I just have a baby that hates sleeping and never gives me a break and is not as well behaved as all these other babies. I’m so miserable. He doesn’t nap. He doesn’t sleep. I hate motherhood. He’s 4 months. I really hope it’s true when parents say it gets better.