I sometimes can’t feel husband during sex!

I sometimes enjoy en doggy style but sometimes in missionary I can’t feel him I feel numb. I have a 5 year old and a 2 year old daughter my son is someone else’s son tho his dad is not my husband only my daughters. I use vibrators a lot also because he works a lot. He comes home from work at 6am that’s when we do it and Saturday and Sunday he has off. He no longer eats me out and barely touches my clit I feel resentful towards him because she says I can’t always be satisfied all the time it can’t be what I want . He once told me it isn’t necessary to eat a girl out but he likes when I suck his dick. He only did a few times before marriage then stopped. He said once it’s not necessary to do that to a women for her to get hornier. I’m tired of crying already every time I have told him that he only cares about his orgasm and him cumming. Sometimes I orgasm but without feeling any pleasure sometimes. I only feel him most during doggy style. I wish a hand someone eat me out and finger me touch my clit and then have sex with me. I’ve told him I want a divorce he is trying to give me more sex before we only had sex sex only once every two weeks now he has been giving me more sex because of me fighting with him so much about it. I don’t even remember how it feels like to get eaten out anymore I forgot that feeling. Before I had our daughter I felt him more in missionary but not as much now unless he hits really hard. We had sex everyday before. And we even have family members take care of the kids sometimes for two weeks and he still doesn’t want to satisfy me.