Trigger warning: miscarriage

Feeling extremely heartbroken and discouraged. I had a chemical pregnancy and experienced a miscarriage in October.

I went on to conceive naturally two months ago and had another miscarriage yesterday because the baby wasn’t growing. I was sent home for a natural at home miscarriage (the process is still happening)

I don’t know how long it’ll take before I recover from this. Is there something wrong with me? Will I ever be able to become a mother? Will I ever smile again?