Ectopic Pregnancy/ surgery

2 weeks and 1 day ago I had surgery because I had an ectopic pregnancy and lost my right Fallopian tube due to my baby being to big and the doctors were scared that it was already damaged. That was the worst day of my life, i was so excited that I was pregnant and finding out I had an EP killed me. I’m trying so hard to be strong and not worry my family but it’s so hard for me, I truly wanted my baby to be ok and still be here.. I would have been due on December 14 😓 since this week was Mother’s Day everything hit me even harder, this was my first pregnancy and all I think about is my baby💔has anyone gotten through this ? And if so how did you cope?😔😓