Coping with Ectopic Pregnancy

Yesterday was my one month anniversary of having my 7week old baby surgically removed along with the Fallopian tube they decided would be a nice home to grow in. During surgery they found extensive endometriosis as well. The tube had burst which they didn’t find out until I was already in surgery so along with my child loss I also had to deal with the fact that I almost died too.

I’ve been feeling lost and grieving over my loss but I feel as though I’m alone in this. A couple of days before Mother’s Day my partner accidentally referred to me as just a cat mum and “not a real mum” and I completely broke down. He realised what he said was completely incorrect and treated me all weekend.

Is this normal to feel like a mother that has lost her child so early in the relationship. It’s not getting easier just more spread out with the feelings of grief. Does it get better and is pregnancy still a thing I can even achieve naturally anymore??