I got out of a bad relationship (DV/ marriage that ended in divorce obviously) almost two years ago. My current bf is the guy who was there to help me during the blowout(we all were hanging out and drinking on the weekend) and from the beginning I said I didn’t want a relationship because it was literally the next day ish?

*back story- he told me he had feelings for me when I was with my ex and I kind of felt something maybe for him but I was in a relationship* anyways we had rebound sex often and he always stayed over(we practically lived together) and then maybe a month later he asked me out and I said okay. We got in arguments a lot and honestly I just needed to heal. My divorce was taking a while(finalized last may, kicked my ex out in October the year prior) and I was dealing with kind of feelings for my current bf. Everything was so fast and I had always asked if we could slow down and of course we never did, I asked if he minded if he was gonna be over at mine if we had separate bedrooms so we each had our own space when we needed it. That sparked another argument and honestly that whole situation was toxic as hell. Flash forward we’re still together and we live in a different place together but he pushed my clearly laid out boundaries in the beginning to the point where I’m still in a place where I’m annoyed I don’t have my own space and I never got a chance to just be single and get back to being myself. It was immediately after, basically. I resent him for it tbh. It’s annoying that my boundaries were shoved and manipulated. The relationship now is okay. It’s healthy as far as relationships go. I don’t really have any complaints anymore but I’m tired of being in a relationship. I’m tired of thinking of other people’s feelings and I’m struggling. The problem is I can’t afford his part of rent(there’s 3 of us living together) if we broke up and I don’t want to still be held back. Unfortunately, I am and I don’t want to stay in this situation but I can’t get out of it right now. I’d been struggling for so long because we’re fine. Idk if I love him, tbh idk if I’ve loved anyone but that’s a whole other thing. On one hand it’s a solid relationship from a rocky start and on the other I just want to be alone, I’m almost 25 and have been in relationships almost constantly since I was 19, I’m sick of it and would like to get to know myself as an adult on my own. How do I even go about getting out of this situation?