Urgh, love sucks

I’m trying not to check up on my ex, it’s so hard to keep busy when you’re on lockdown 🥺 meanwhile he’s prob with girls, drinking & doing whatever. I’m just at home with our 2 year old, & 30 weeks pregnant. 😪 I haven’t seen him in 2 weeks. I’m so lonely, I miss him but I keep telling myself that he isn’t what I want anymore. I guess the loneliness is just getting to me. I crave intimacy with him, the cuddles & just having him here with us. 😪 I’m so lame.

I really hope I get past this feeling soon... I still haven’t packed his stuff. Mainly because I don’t want other girls wearing his clothes or him dressing up for other girls. Lol it’s so lame. All of his things are in my room. ugh