Feeling hopeless

It’s hitting me hard. Ive been struggling this whole time but the last like month I just feel myself sinking deeper & deeper into a depression.

My youngest will be a year at the end of the month & I have a 4yo.

My poor partner is at his wits end because I am miserable to deal with. I know I am. & I know I am taking it out on him & it isn’t fair. Snapping at my kids which isn’t fair.

This maternity leave, being so isolated, just me & the kids. He works all the time to support us. Im miserable. Don’t get me wrong I love him & my kids so much but one minute im so happy & the next im bursting into tears because I just don’t know why. Everything makes me so angry. I don’t want to live like this. Im so afraid of losing him. But I feel like I’ve fallen into this hole & completely lost myself & making everyone around me miserable in the process