I feel like an idiot.

Yeah, I feel like an idiot.

I am exactly 7 weeks pregnant today and I am already someone who is emotional and has strong feelings...needless to say, pregnancy has made that a little more intense for me.

I was having anxiety really bad today about working tonight. I recently moved to OH and I have been working remotely for my old job back in MA. I was just worked up because I knew I had a TON to do, and my boss can be pretty insensitive, harsh, and sets unrealistic expectations.

I was venting to my fiance earlier about how I wanted to quit my job because I was so stressed by it. (I got stress hives from it today, which isn't uncommon for me with this job).

I log on and my boss started being rude to me yet again and getting onto me when I hadn't even had a chance to get even 1/10 of the way through my emails... everything I felt came to a head. I wrote a long email and told her I was quitting and I apologized for not working up to her standards and making so many mistakes but that I've barely slept or eaten in the last few weeks and I keep making mistakes because I can't keep my focus and that I'm trying my best and I realize it isn't working out. I told her I tried to make it work but I'm physically and emotionally out of steam. I offered to keep my position until she can find someone new. She fired me tonight instead, citing repeatedly how disappointed she is in me. I finished up as much work as I could to help out, made her a list of where I was at, and logged off. I know it's my fault for sucking at my job right now and giving up but it still felt like shit.

Thank God my fiance makes enough money to support us and has told me many times I'm welcome to quit and just prepare for SAHM life but I can't help beating myself up.

Sorry for my rant but I don't have any friends or anyone to talk to, thanks if you made it this far.