how would yall feel ?

I found a piece of paper written by my boyfriend in OUR notebook we use together naming basically all that he doesnt like about me. and in the end he says “and to make everything worse now im forced to have a baby with you.” i dont know how to feel that this man feels forced having my baby and i dont know what i do so wrong to him. he acts so different towards me all the time it just doesnt make sense. One minute he hates me and im the worst person to walk the face of the earth and then hes telling me he loves me every second. i dont know what to believe anymore. i feel shitty.