Praying for a baby but terribly anxious

I am absolutely terrified of being pregnant again. Scared of having a miscarriage but mostly because I feel completely alone.

First miscarriage at 19 weeks November 2020. I only told about 10 people and that wasn’t until 16 weeks. I had my first child 11 years ago when I was 18 so I just wanted a peaceful pregnancy.

I got pregnant again January 2021 and lost that baby at 14 weeks in April. I only told 4 people. Because if I lost that baby it’s even harder to tell people my body failed my baby again.

I got pregnant again June 2021 and that ended up be a chemical pregnancy just around 5 weeks. I told 2 people.

At this point I don’t want to tell anyone I’m pregnant other than the dad because it’s heartbreaking at this point.