Being a mom is hard and today, I just can’t.

I feel so overwhelmed as a first time single mom. This is harder than I thought, as stupid as that sounds. I thought my partner would stick around but he didnt.

I’ve lost my identity completely. I cry everyday. I cant take care of myself, basic things like a shower. Haven’t put on makeup and felt good in a year. My son is now a year old and its still so hard.

I blame myself for everything. Whys he constipated? Whys he crying? Whys he not walking yet???

This is so hard. I have nobody, absolutely nobody. And I feel like the biggest failure and so much guilt for just wanting to go out for one night and take care of myself. Anytime I am away from him for even a bit I feel soo much guilt.

Someone please tell me it gets better because I feel sooo incredibly low right now