I feel terrible about this

My MIL is visiting and I’m loving it. The only thing is I feel like a terrible Christian because since she arrived on the 3rd, every night we’ve been watching Bible studies or sermons. There were two night where I had the remote and we watch a show or we watched the movie Fireproof. All her and my husband want to watch is YouTube sermons or listen Peter Ruckman recording on YouTube. So my one year old will go to be at 7/7:30 and until 11 at night it’s nothing but studying. I know this makes me an awful person. 😞 I’ve been battling with it. As a Christian I should want to only focus completely on God’s word day and night. But I can’t. I know I should but I don’t have that kind of thirst. I do like listening and I do enjoy studying but not every waking moment of quiet.

Last night I asked if they were doing Bible Study again because I was going to suggest maybe enjoying another Christian movie (MIL won’t watch anything that isn’t completely God centered) and my husband had us all grab other Bibles and put on a Bible study to listen to. I tried to tell him I wanted to just relax and not study but I misunderstood me. Then when He offered me a pen to take notes, I told him I didn’t want one, he looked at me funny.

There are some night I’m just so burnt out from caring for our daughter that I just want to watch something and not study.

I feel like such an awful person. A burden to my family for being such a way. 😞