I’m trying to hold on ( I just need to blow off steam)

So my boyfriend has fallen back into drinking. It’s getting bad again like it was before. I left him then. He was sober for about two years. We got back together. Well now he’s at it again. Before he started we were so happy it was good. Out of nowhere he started telling me off. He started telling me that I was a whore and that I was cheating on him. From that he moved onto calling me a cheating drug addict bitch. Mind you, I’ve never done any of those things. Well now he’s stuck on telling me off for going to my lil nephews dress up bbq which was just family. He keeps saying I just want to party and I want attention from every guy. I dressed as a Ms. Weasley from Harry Potter and he said I was dressed like a whore. Today I put on my make up. I’m always working so I never get to. He went off on me because I put it on. I’m now waiting til I have enough money to move out and a little extra for emergency. Im almost there. It’s very difficult though having to deal with him drunk. I’m hanging in here. I just keep avoiding him and being as nice as I can. It’s hard but I’m doing it. I wish I had somewhere to go for now, but unfortunately I don’t. He literally started grabbing on me yesterday as if we were okay. I said “no I don’t want to have sex because I’m on my period” cause he was trying to. He got mad and said fine and that he will find it elsewhere. That did hurt cause he keeps saying I’m cheating but he’s the one saying those type of comments to me about finding it somewhere else. Also like a week ago he told me there’s a new lady coworker which means he will have more options other than me. It hurts but I don’t want him. I keep hearing my grandma saying just a little more, and leave and don’t turn back. I can’t wait to be free. I’m so tired. Plus I am applying to places so hopefully I get one quick. Pray for me and wish me luck.

Thank you to whoever read this and for your prayers and wishes of luck ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️