Anxiety meds while pregnant ?

Hey ladies.. I would love to hear your personal experiences/thoughts on taking medication while pregnant?

I personally got off my anxiety medications once me and my husband talked about trying for a baby. Reason being is right on the bottle it says not safe to take during third trimester. I didn’t wanna take it my first 2 trimesters and then abruptly stop them.. which I’m so glad I made that decision cause getting off them was absolutely terrible. For a month straight I was puking every day, no appetite and a strong sense of depression and anxiety. Literally felt like my skin was crawling.

Anyways, my anxiety is soooo bad. :( I wake up in panic attacks, I don’t sleep at night, I force myself to eat meals by basically holding my breath while I swallow. I eat only simple foods like applesauce, cheese, granola bars, maybe a banana if I can eat the whole thing..

I know being stressed while pregnant isn’t a good idea but I also know taking medication isn’t ideal either.

I’d love to hear your experiences. I feel I deserve a baby one day, and shouldn’t let my anxiety take that away from me, but I want a healthy pregnancy and healthy baby…. What should I do?