Does it really get better?

This year I’ve been through hell and back I lost friends I was in a abusive relationship. I fell out with family I was forced to go in the hospital for a attempt and I never thought I would get over that type of depression where I just can’t eat or can’t sleep or crying yourself to bed at 3 in the morning. Often times I felt alone. I eventually got better but boy do relationships change the trajectory of your life I was already skinny trying to gain weight I was 114lbs with all my hard work and lost it and went to 103 I didn’t know who I was?!! And although I’m past that and trying to get back on track sometimes my anger and falling out with my mom hurts me and ruins my day. Yesterday she screamed at me so bad that I cried so bad I didn’t go to work does anyone have issues with their emotions getting in the way? Like you’re just so sad you can’t function and you cry so hard you hyperventilate? I know I’m a work in progress and it saddens me that I will only get paid for one work day but I can always bounce back right? At least I hope so…