My little angel In heaven 👼🏼

In April I found out that I was pregnant with my second child. Everything was really great but I week 12 when I had a spotting, I went to the hospital and the ob gyn said I had to be in bed. Everything was really good. I found out later I was having a baby boy we were really excited because we have a 4 year old girl. But my world fall apart on September. I was 26.6 weeks and have a spotting like I was going to labor. The nurse said I wasn't dilating that I can go home but if I had a bleeding or other thing go back to the hospital. That night my water broke all of the sudden they try to hold the baby but 2 days later on my 27.1 week I had an emergency C section. My handsome boy was 2.1 pounds and 16" inches. He was so good for the first 10 days was on ventilator but no intubated... Then he developed NEC, later a bacteria, his kidneys shut down and on October 2 he passed away. It's been the most horrific 2 months of my life. I cry almost everyday. My daughter asks for him almost everyday too. She keeps asking why baby had to be in heaven 😞 we are so heartbroken and the pain it's unbearable 😪