I feel like my marriage is breaking.

I'm 14 weeks pregnant.. I don't have a mother figure to talk about anything with I'm going through ptsd, anxiety and depression due to the holidays coming and having abusive parents. I'm struggling so much emotionally and spiritually. My husband who I married in February is fighting with me because he wants to masturbate and it gives me anxiety and insecurities about myself sexually. He's also being very forceful and orders me around almost like he's always bigger and better than me. My work sucks and I'm told constantly by customers that I should just be fired. I feel so incapable of everything and feel so apathetic and depressed. I've talked about counseling to him. He thinks it's a bad idea and they're just going to push pills on me. I'm struggling with so much and I have for a while now.. My husband also says I'm too emotional which is only because of the depression and pregnancy..