Infant loss

I had a baby girl 10/14/21 and in 10/21/21 she passed away. She stopped breathing and we could

Not save her 😭 I still feel

So empty and numb. I know in my heart I need and want another baby. My rainbow baby. My bf of 7 years is not sure he wants another and it breaks my heart a little more. I told him If we are not gonna have another we should donate her things Bc I can’t keep them. The crib is still up in my 4yr olds room. Everything else is on a storage unit . What do I do.