Am I terrible person on giving up on TTC

I gave in this month and I stopped trying for a baby. I just got tired of disapoiment after another.

Hubby and I arent even sexually active like we used to back in highschool. Its like once a month to even not doing it.

We found out that he could possibly have low sperm count after i told hin long ago to go get check but just blew it off till now.

All I want to do is block everything out of my life and just work go home and keep doing it over and over till I get old and die.

I'm tired of suffering, it really fucking hurts and I just want to be in peace even though I'm giving up on what me and my hubby worked hard for. 😔

I do hope you ladies get BFP with your hubby.

Sending baby dust to you all