Full of emotions having my second baby soon

I’ve been full of emotions the last few days… my son just turned 1 on the 6th and I’m going to be giving birth to my daughter in 4 weeks and I just don’t know how to feel. I miss when I first brought my son home, he was so small and needed me for everything. He still needs me but he’s gotten so independent in his first year. I wish he still wanted to cuddle all the time. And I also feel guilty about having another baby so soon. I don’t know how I’m going to balance both babies and give them what they need. I’m having a c-section and just knowing I won’t be able to pick my son up for sometime is killing me because he’s so affectionate with me. And I also don’t want to be distracted by my sadness and end up neglecting my daughter because she doesn’t deserve that at all. I just want to be the best mom I can be and I’m so scared about not being able to give my all to them. They deserve so much love and attention, I’m scared they’re going to feel thrown away