God I’m an awful person and just wish I could be different

My husband is sick today and got a low fever/headache… so of course, he is in bed ALL DAY sleeping while I’m downstairs pregnant and taking care of my annoying toddler, after having a stressful week… now this is my weekend.

All I can feel is irritation and resentfulness towards everything. I wish I was the one sick so I could be locked in my room all day. But guess what. I never get to do that unless I’m dying like earlier in the pregnancy when I had HG.

Yes I’m awful. I feel awful… worst person in the world.

I just hope its my hormones and not that I’m just this evil bitch that can’t deal with life struggles💔

I want to feel different and BE different but I don’t know how.