Mental health

I’ve been really down lately and mood has been really down. I’ve been wanting to cry for no apparent reason and I feel so alone. I’ve been relaying on melatonin for sleep and I’m a bit Anti social so it’s really hard for me to make friends. I haven’t really been eating and it’s affecting me. I have to force myself to go to the gym. My grades aren’t really doing that well. I really don’t know what to do.

I want to go out and have connections with friends and adventures. I’ve always been a homebody but I don’t want to be that anymore. I was only a homebody because of my overprotective family.

I am also really insecure and there’s some usual boy issues. Idk who to talk to about it and what I can do. I don’t want to see a therapist and I’m super shy even though some of you may advise me to. I don’t think there’s really anything anyone can say to me that would help. I think the only things that would help me is going out and just having fun but I don’t want to do that by myself. I’m so sick of seeing everyone going out and having fun by themselves and I have nothing. Im a college student, living at home still.

Today I went out and walked around by myself in the city since it was nice weather and just to be around people. Looking around, I noticed everyone having a good time and having at least one other person to walk around with, while I was alone. That made me really sad and I almost cried in Public knowing I’m here alone.