I could rly use some encouragement and advice

I’ve been struggling to conceive for a long 19m. My partner and I have been up and down. More down that up lately.

I don’t think I’ll ever get the chance to have a third child if I leave him.

Do u give up my hopes for a third child and just move on?

I don’t want to divorce but it’s getting unbearable. All I do is love foe my children and endure his emotional abuse.

I need help. Please don’t judge. This is hard