Needing a confidence booster ????

Let me just start out by saying in my younger years I always had at least some confidence in my body & although there were things I would have liked to change like everyone else, I used to be somewhat happy with my appearance & my body. .. then I had a baby within two years of graduating high school & I went thru some absolutely TOXIC relationships thereafter where I was cheated on which creates self-doubt in yourself & creates self-doubt in your image. Fast forward 10 years & I was living with my current fiancé. We had just purchased our first home & I was finally becoming able to co-parent with my daughters father since he remarried & stop doing things to me out of spite & I thought I had the “picture perfect life”. Then about 8 months ago, my world crashed .. my fiancé got a new cell phone because he broke his & I was cleaning up on evening after putting my daughter to bed & I came across his old phone. Some distinctly strong urge came over me to look at this phone so I turned it on .. & found out that my fiancé had been having an affair for over a year with his ex (whom was married to another man) & I know it’s cliche but I really did not see it coming so it destroyed me. My fiancé & I have liked each other since we were 13 & now are 32 & he has always treated me sooooo incredibly well. I’m talking opens doors for me including the car door anytime we go anywhere, used to send me flowers to my work just because, would post statuses on social media about how much he appreciated me & admired me as a mom & showed me more love & affection than any man has ever shown my in my life. But looking back now, I can notice the shift in his efforts & distinguish when I started to feel him pull away & that’s when the fighting began to be more frequent & I spent more nights alone (he’s a truck driver so he spends usually 2-3 nights a week out on the road). But it absolutely devastated my self image .. I started to doubt myself & doubt my body & think there had to be something wrong with me for him to cheat. I have been following this local photography studio on Instagram for over two years at this point & they specialize in Boudoir shoots (check them out @sheerphotography & @sheerbeautys on Instagram). & after dealing with feeling like not enough & second guessing my value based on my fiancés lack of attention towards me & sadly after for a split second thinking to myself “why is she better than me” .. I stopped myself & realized I needed to do something for me. Every woman that had went to this studio raved about how empowering it was to see yourself in a new light & remind yourself that you are enough & you are beautiful .. so I decided to take the plunge & book a session because after this past year, I needed to regain some self confidence in myself more than ever before. I made pre-payments each week beforehand (which were non-refundable) because I knew otherwise I would talk myself out of going & I purchased about 15 different lingerie outfits to try on beforehand (of course hating each & every one as I tried them on in the mirror) & on the day of my appointment let me just say it took EVERY OUNCE OF STRENGTH I HAD LEFT just to walk thru those doors .. but I did it & I could not be more thrilled with the outcome! I have always been super self critical of myself & I started the appointment by being the same way in front of them but they kept reminding me that I am beautiful & their encouragement helped me loosen up tremendously! By the end of the appointment I was so much more relaxed & ended up fully nude in the final shots. I still in the back of my mind at this point expected to hate every picture of myself even though I was feeling more comfortable in my own skin at that moment but when it came time for the photo reveal .. I was completelyyyy blown away. Now I’m still somewhat self critical of myself but they helped me see myself in a new light & regain confidence that I haven’t had in myself for yearssssss. Sooooo sooo worth every penny & I strongly suggest it to any woman out there who finds herself constantly criticizing herself & thinking she’s not enough because YOU ARE ENOUGH & YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!!