don’t know how to feel…

Me and my boyfriend work together and on yesterday’s shift while we were working he randomly told me that he has a gut feeling that I will cheat on him… I looked at him dead in the eye and said ‘Are you being serious right now, is that really how your feeling’ because he knows that I love him too much to ever even think about cheating. He said “Yeah i’m being deadass right now, it’s like a gut feeling I have.” I looked at him disappointed and tried to speak in how I feel, saying how that’s hurtful to hear from him and this man starts laughing and put his hand where it’s covering my face and said “I cant take you seriously get the fuck out my face.” Yallll I just couldn’t, I walked away to take a breather and he tells me that he’s gonna clock out already (our shift would end in 2 hours and he was the one who brought me to work) and I was like wtf?? This motherfucker proceeds to go back there and “clock out” and I see him from where i’m at so when he comes back to the front I like where tf are you going and I grabbed his arm and he didn’t even look at me and told me to get the fuck off and stop talking to him. I went back to my station and my coworker told me that he didn’t clock out he just went on break. I texted him and this is how it went:

I said “What’s going on with you?”

He replied, “Nah you’re weird. We’re not going to last.”

I felt like someone shanked me in the heart and kept going. Tears started streaming down my face so I ran to the bathroom and I just stared bawling. He calls me so I answered him and I was the first one to talk saying “babe what do you mean” , he heard my voice cracking and shaky and he could obviously tell i was crying. He proceeds to say “Babe please don’t cry i’m joking i’m not being serious.” I guess his joke was over once he heard me crying and started feeling guilt. I instantly hung up the phone on him, put my hands over my face and i couldn’t stop crying over the sink. I know it sounds very crybaby but I was very disappointed in him. I didn’t know he could be this childish. I think like 2 minutes later I hear him running through the entrance door of the building and he opened the girls bathroom and he hugged me and pulled me in close to him. He kept repeating “please don’t cry baby please.” I asked him why he did it, this whole scene. He looked at me like he didn’t have a genuine answer to that and said “ I don’t know, i really don’t” Later that night when he dropped me off we always give a goodbye kiss and I was trying to give a longer kiss to him and he just said “I don’t want to make out right now, bye love you” I got my shit and just walked away.

I don’t know how to feels about this, about him. I love him so much that its hurting me.