Have you ever been in a one-sided toxic relationship?

Question

Just broke up with my ex almost two weeks now😖 for more than 2 years.. put up with all these narcissistic traits… excused his cold behavior& disrespect. Made scenarios in my head and I was stubborn and stupid to hold on to “hope” that he would change and be more loving and caring of me.
First I felt anxious, but I got used to the behavior and I was Able to be more calm. But when I noticed I was falling into depression (these past 3 months were way worse especially with his family going through so many issues). I decided I had to seek therapy which I did❤️🥲 and I had no choice but to leave the guy who I thought I wanted to spend my life with.
I’m about to start grad school next semester, still hitting the gym! Lucky to have great friends for support & I’m taking a summer trip! Life is looking great! We are so valuable! Our time here is not guaranteed. I’m glad to be out of this! No one should ever be in a place where you feel miserable! Laugh! Love and fight to be the person you were meant to be!🥰❤️❤️❤️

Answer

I think in the past I would have said yes, but I have some trouble blaming it all on him. Like yes, he was absolutely more toxic, manipulative etc. He was the main toxic person, but he also definitely brought out my most toxic sides, and I did some things I didn't understand were toxic then. 
But yes, it was mostly me peacemaking and talking calmly & him yelling and calling me names, throwing things, blocking me from leaving, him picking fights, him denying me sleep, accusing me of cheating, not letting me go anywhere and getting angry if I spoke to anyone who wasn't him, and tackled me once, SA'd me at the end & after, followed me home when I asked him not to, stalked me a bit etc. 
But I think I sort of enabled some of this nonsense. And I also lied so he'd shut the fuck up and even got a little physical with him twice (once to pry him off my car, push him out of my way to leave with my shoulder, once I shook him during his sleep deprivation tactics) and punched myself in the face once. I hid things from him because I was scared, etc. 
I'm not the type to lie, but I was groomed to protect him from the truth and then also he would fight with me all night and I wouldn't feel safe telling the truth. Even if I told the complete truth he'd accuse me of lying. This guy was maddening. 
I should have just left, but when you're groomed 10 years, you don't walk away that easily. 
In a way, I had to have some toxicity in me to be there. And it brought out any that was in me. 
I've never been a codependent person, but with this person, I had an extremely codependent thing going on and it was hell.

Have you ever been in a one-sided toxic relationship?

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