Boyfriend may be proposing to me even though a few months ago he said he was not ready

My boyfriend and I have been together for 7 years, and living together for 2 years. A little background, the topic of marriage had been tossed around a lot. However, we are both still pretty young at 21 and 22. I know in my head I want to marry him, it is just down to when would be the best time as we don't know what our future holds. For example, I am applying for graduate school this fall, and he is applying for his first full time job since he just graduated with his BA. The possibility of me having to move to go to a different school and us having to live apart for awhile may very well be a reality if I dont get into the school I want.

Anyways, a few months ago, I regrettable kept pushing the idea of marriage. I kept asking him and questioning him frequently, and this, along with friends and family prodding at him as well put a lot of pressure on him, rightfully so. One night, he had enough and straight up told me he had planned on asking to marry me by the end of the summer..I felt very ashamed and bad that I had essentially made him spoil that news to me by questioning him. So the next day, I apologized and we had a long conversation about it. I told him that I didnt want him to do it just because he felt pressured and we agreed that we probably arent ready just yet since our future is unpredictable right now. I still knew in my head that I would say yes at any moment, because I just know I want to spend my life with him. It doesnt scare me, or bother me or make me feel "not ready" because of the uncertainty of our future. Plus there would probably be a year or two with the engagement anyway. but I definitely understand him feeling that way, and I wanted to put him at ease and also take that pressure off his shoulders too. I realized we have all the time in the world so why not just enjoy our lives together, and when it happens it happens. But he is aware that i would be beyond elated if he asked me to marry him no matter what.

Okay, so the topic of marriage was kind of dropped for a few months. But then, last week something happened that threw me off and heightened my suspicion. I took him some lunch at his work and we sat and ate in his office. He had his laptop up and was playing a game on it. I was sitting beside him, and all of the sudden, I dont know how it happened, but a tab of Kay jewelers website popped up. He quickly exited out of it, but it was kind of obvious I saw it. We didnt speak of it, and I just brushed it off. It definitely had me thinking and kind of excited, but I told myself it probably wasnt recent, and was probably from a few months ago when he was feeling pressured.

But then, the other day it happened AGAIN. Same scenerio, i brought him lunch at work and he had his laptop up. Again, dont know how it popped up but I saw Kays website again. But this time I was sitting behind him and he didnt immediately ex out of it. Im fact, he was facing it, then looked at me, then looked back at his laptop and then exed out of it and he wasnt in a rush to do so. It was as if he was purposely trying to get me to see it. So that really confused me honestly. Like, I could get it happening once accidentally. But TWICE?? You wouldnt think..bc I know how careful he is. If he wouldnt want me to know something, he would do a pretty good job it. So again, it was obvious I saw it but nothing was said about it. I just carried on about what we were talking about. Which BY THE WAY, the conversation we were having while this occured the second time was literally about what our wedding would be like since he had just gone to one of our highschool friends wedding the previous day. So that, on top the conversation we just had a few months ago about not being ready, has me feeling confused. Like I cant help but be extremely excited and I find myself constantly thinking about it and literally smiling my face off at work at the thought of it. But I cant get over why he would be purposely showing me that?

I havent really told anyone about this which is kinda why im getting it off my chest here. I cant stop thinking about it I really want him to ask me, there are no reservations there. But like? Cant help but wonder what he is doing. Maybe trying to throw me off about it? I dont know, what do you think? Maybe he still planned on doing it when we had that conversations a few months ago but said the opposite that way it would make me think he wasnt going to and it wouldnt be "spoiled" anymore essentially. But then if thats the case, why would he try to hint to me through showing it to me on his laptop, if thats what he was even doing anyway.

I dont know. He has been using different laguage too. Like the other day he made a joke and said "thats why i DECIDED to marry you" but we arent engaged yet, and he never made comments that direct before. It was the word usage that caught me off gaurd. Either way, I just neesed to tell someone that. I didnt want to make it a big deal to friends and I just keep thinking about it and wanted to type it out. Thanks for reading if you made it this far and let me know what you think!!🙂