It’s like I’m just a body to him.

I tell him what I expect from him. Update me when you’re out if you change locations. Be there for the family, cook sometimes, take care of our first born without me having to ask, take out the trash sometimes, do the dishes sometimes…. Contribute to the family/house. But no he doesn’t help at all without me asking first even though he knows what needs to be done. If it was something to do with his own stuff he would make sure it gets done ten times over…. Plan something for the family sometimes… every time we go out he so clearly wants nothing to do with us. But when he’s with his friends it when he’s dealing with cars he’s fine laughing up a storm and out for hours… legit HOURS all day till 2,3,4 am. I tell him it would be nice to be surprised sometimes it’s really the little things oh I’m driving by your favorite takeout place let me get her something she likes. No never can’t remember the last time he did something nice for me. Oh yeah he got me flowers… half. dead. Flowers. For Mother’s Day I told him the previous day id love for us to go out the park or something but no instead of spending the day with us he left to tend to his own stuff and brought back half. Dead. Flowers. He sure is passionate about wanting sex from me though. Not even six weeks postpartum and I hear “Can I get some head?” You want head from me but can’t help me take care of our kids? Can’t Clean up after yourself?? Can’t put us first for ONCE ? But I should feel ecstatic about giving you head. Lol don’t let me uninterested in giving him a kiss or giving him sex and it’s a whole deal. Today was just the icing on the cake he can’t seem to not entertain other women.… maybe go ask them for some head instead of me…. I say I must only be a body for him cuz why can’t he keep up with simple things? Why does it feel like he’s only still “here” for my body..

I know this post is all over the place there may be some typos I don’t have the energy to proofread. I just need to vent here cuz I don’t want to talk to him right now and fall into a trap where I say oh I can forgive this time… nope not this time I am doneeee.