Self esteem has been low.. for a while.

Ever since the pandemic, I am the heaviest that I have ever been in my life (177) I used to be 134. It's really taken a toll on how I view myself as a woman & how unmotivated I am. My mental health started affecting all areas of my life including school, health, relationships. Feeling so down & unmotivated, stress eating. I never dress up or do my makeup anymore like I used to and getting told that I let myself go and looking tired / drained. I want to go back to the person I once was who used to put the effort & time into their appearance & had more confidence. February is the month of love so I'm learning to love myself everyday and giving myself extra love on days when I am having a hard time loving myself. I am mentally tired. This past weekend, I dyed parts of my hair a magenta color to add some color for a new look, took the time to actually curl my hair for the first time in a few years, & put on makeup. I know self love isn't about makeup and curling your hair but I did want to remind myself that I am not letting myself go. I'm going to be focusing on the journey of self love.